Cheers To The Baby Onboard

 

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I want to tell you how obsessed I am about you. Of the long nights we have had together. As you twirl, kick and move. How I engage you in small talk.  How I get to work late because I need not to interrupt your playing moment right after my alarm goes off. That moment is Holy. I love it when I am hungry and you kinda throw tantrums. At that moment you don’t only kick or move, you throw things around in there to remind me that I need to feed you.

I however wonder how you look like. Do you look more like your father or me? Will you have my eyes or his? One thing I don’t doubt is that you look awesome, and amazing, and unique, and loved.  Damn, so much! I never understood my mother’s love until saw you through the ultra sound at week 15. Suddenly my bladder relocated to the eye-balls. You were so beautiful in black and white. I am still in awe…  Yet,  it hasn’t been blissful all through. You have given me scares that had me running to hospital in tears. Still, I have spent countless nights wondering if I will be good for you. If my good will be enough for you. Will my love will be enough? Will you love me back? Please remind me to love myself when I’m lost in you, will you?

I pray that you grow up in good health; of mind, body and soul. May you grow in knowledge and wisdom; to have mental, spiritual and social intellect. I pray I don’t fail you. I pray that you live to your true purpose. That nothing will hold you back. I pray you seek God in everything you do; that Matthew 6: 33 will always be your reference point. I pray you don’t take after me, or your dad or anyone else. Be your true self, unique in character and personality. I pray you will forgive me for the many times I will mess things up in the hope of doing good to you and for you.

I pledge to introduce you to my God; Proverbs 22:6 compels me to it.  The God I have known all this long and trust that when you grow up, you will not depart. I pledge to love and protect you even from yourself. I pledge to give you all that I can; all that you need. I pledge to set out a path for you to which you will follow when you are big enough. I would pledge the entire world for you my love, flesh of my flesh.

So, cheers to you; for making me a mother. For teaching me patience- I am not the most patient person yet here I am, waiting to meet you. For invading my body (good job kiddo). For the hectic 4 months of morning sickness and an entire unpredictable pregnancy thereafter. For teaching me to appreciate little things *see what I did there*. Above all, thanks to God  for choosing and entrusting me with you. This is for you!

PS: You are my new revelation; and so my life will change. My Facebook statuses will revolve around you and so are my IG posts. And because we are a generation of social media mum, you will forgive me.

Let’s at least agree on that.

 

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28 thoughts on “Cheers To The Baby Onboard

  1. Ooooh what a great piece filled with love and anticipation. I like where you tell them to remind you to love you when you are lost in them. Spectacular!

  2. i love him/her already. awesome mum , awesome kid. uncle franc is proud.
    “your love is not chosen its destined, your hearts may not be twins but they are intertwined, your bodies may not be alike but they are bound, your minds may not be linked but they are always in-sync” cheers to a mothers love..

  3. This is awesome! am compelled to do a piece too for my unborn child but how now? The Economist and Accountant in me will just put in budgets, numbers, graphs and formulas! But am gonna try. May your wishes come true mum! Baby is gonna be proud of you!

  4. This is the most awesome piece I have read in a long while, Hellen your already a great mum! Baby has the nicest piece of a mother in you.. May God see you through as you reach the end of the road and you receive your bundle of Joy!
    Mapenzi Tele!

  5. Waaaah! Thank you for putting to words what I tried so long to and never quite managed. Loool! So I’m not the only one who got a good kicking when I was hungry. I even begged a closed shop to sell me a hot dog once cos she was causing so much in there, and they understood and did. 🙂 Thank you for writing this! It gave me very happy tears.

    • I had struggled with this piece since day one. One day I just write everything I’d been telling him in our small talks.. wasn’t easy put it to paper. I’m glad you relate in a very profound way. Cheers to these little ones.

  6. Aww,Hellen….this is so touching.. you are going to be an amazing mum, this i have no doubt..i can’t wait to hold this bundle of joy..
    Cheers to the baby onboard 😀😀💜

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